Graduation was yesterday, and I feel like crap.

It finally happened, the hour and a half ceremony now seemed like it was only 5 mintues. It's all a bit much to swallow.

I went to Lauren's last night with every intention of getting up the next morning to take my AICE chem test and get my AICE diploma that I worked hard for. Instead I accidentally slept in and missed it. Fuck. I'm really really mad at myself right now, I was an idiot for not having gone to sleep, or even stayed home. Now I can't get my AICE diploma that I took an extra test earlier in the year specifically so I COULD get one. 

But, Lauren's party was awesome, I had alot alot alot of fun. And my party here was awesome, I got lots of awesome presents and such, new bed spreads, laundry baskets, towels, all the essentials for when I leave for college. It makes it all that more real to me.  Who would have thought linens would become so signifigant in my mind...

I didn't deserve half the things I got. Or any for that matter, I barely made it through my last year of highschool, getting progressively worse in my work habits and attitude as the year progressed. I don't know, alot of money was spent and give at my expense, and I just don't feel all that comfortable with it.

I'm graduated, I should be happy. But instead I just feel....

queasy.

current mood: uncomfortable